This poem is really long...some of the stanzas are not my best, and some are...please comment! i appreciate anything anyone has to say and i need help editing this poem! thanks!
Opening the mailbox
On a Sunday afternoon
Too lazy to get it yesterday
But it's already after noon
What I found
Changed my day
From a cloudless sky
Came pouring rain
An invitation to a night
Full of joy and bliss and wonderful sights
For everyone else there, it would be the day
That they would see their favorite friends become man and wife
All I could see is that knife in my back
The pain I felt when it was stabbed
There, smiling up at me, was a picture I couldn't see
A man with his bride to be that should have been me
A rose and a note in a broken card
Playing fading music on a guitar
Memories of our past together were there
Along with an apology about our future
"Sorry, that it's over
We need to let it go
We've been driving on this road for so long
I'm losing sight of my home
It's not your fault it's this way
It's just the man I am
I can never stay in one place for long
Sorry, it had to end this way
We could have been together
For years and years to come
But I feel better knowing that
We're separate and I'm long gone
So as you sit reading this letter
Please take time to forgive my heart
For taking yours and stealing it
For taking yours and breaking it"
I found a bottle and a cap
And took the ribbon from my hat
Pushed the letter in and sealed the lid in tight
Those memories weren't coming out to haunt me at night
Throwing the bottle away
Was the thing that saved me
But now its like that message in the bottle
Has come to ruin my day
I know you're really trying
To be a good man to her
But by inviting me to that night,
You're stabbing me with a knife
I'd rather see you gone
Then happy and near me
As you said, I'm better off
Being away with only me
Now I play my own guitar
Music that you may find hard
To find a card that actually plays
And doesn't skip every other beat
Now I write my own books
Creating adventures you never dreamed of
Writing of possibilities that never involve
A romance between you and me
Now I am the president
Of the place where I worked when I knew you
I'm no longer just an assistant
I've moved up the ladder of success
That's what I've done
So you can see
That you're the only one
Whose faking being happy
I can see through those white teeth
In that full tooth smile
In all of those pictures
With her in your arms
You don't want to be there
You're just planning to leave
Another mystery victim
Cause of death? Only I can see
A stab in the back
Weapon...
A sharp metal blade
Why...
Because you were afraid
To actually commit
To someone you thought
You knew and you loved
Because you were afraid
You'd run into the same problem as me
You'd be so in love that you'd be blind of life
You'd be so afraid so you would run away
Leaving her behind in her wedding dress
Going down the aisle full of distress
Discovering the truth behind those bells
Wedding prayers turn to prayers from hell
But they're not going to happen
I already know that much is true
I know you well enough
You're far out of the way
So when that Cupid's Arrow
Hits you hard again
Will you ever wonder
What life you left behind with me?
We could have been together
We could have been so free
We could have been a family
You could have started a new leaf
But, no, you were a coward
Your fear overpowered you
You had to grab that knife and hurt me hard
Then run away and get engaged to her
When you finally understand
That you can't run away from life
It's something you must face
It's something you must like
When you finally understand
There's more to love and hate
I love you with my heart
But it's causing me to ache
I know I may act brave
I know I might seem as if I'm happy
But I'm really dying inside from the pain
Of loving you like this everyday
So, darling, return to me
You're my Prince Charming--don't you see?
The glass slipper fits my foot
I'm just waiting for you to whisk me away
