If only, if only

Seeing you together
Hurts me inside
Oh if only you knew
How for you, I cried

Killing me slowly
And you’re the cause
I attend my own funeral
And your there to applause

I trusted you so
I was always there
Now when I need you most
You don’t even care

I cry for our friendship
I don’t want you to go
Am I grasping at false hope?
I need to know

I feel so used
Replaced by a boy
I guess all I am to you
Is your little decoy