What Happened?

I stare so blankly at the screen, not able to understand,
The words that have been typed don't comprehend in my mind as I reread the frightening words,
They ring in my head, I can imagine you saying them,
Tears start to fall like a mute waterfall down my cheeks,
I don't understand.

You were once to happy and full of life, pouring joy and happiness into me,
Our entertainment was making inside jokes then laughing at them like crazy when no one else understood,
I hadn't ever seen you in a sad moment,
Until now.

You are now hundreds of miles away, settling into your new home,
You are angry and upset and I have given my best to make you smile,
I can't.

You are slowly shutting down on me and the world, throwing your happiness away,
It is scaring me as you type your horrid feelings of suicide and cutting,
You don't understand that I've been down that road,
And I am terrified you will enter that path, unknowing.

I can't help you, I feel so helpless,
You are closing me down, refusing to talk on the computer or answer your phone,
I know you will come around again, but I am afraid of the alternative.

I can't be there for you to cry on, I'm too far away,
But I am never too far for you ro talk to, for you to listen,
I realize it is difficult to leave us all behind, I know you miss us and want to come back,
But you and I both know it won't happen that way.

So please for the sake of me, chin up and put the knife down,
Hurting yourself doesn't work, this I know for a fact,
You are always in my heart, I know you won't ever leave,
For everyone around you, let me back in so I can help your shattered heart,
Returning it to it's normal, beating, steady self.

(This is dedicated to my friend Kim, who is cutting herself because she is alone and scared in a new home, far away from her friends. She is slowly shutting down and I hope I can break her wall before she builds it too high ~Shy)