Sober

I hate who i am without you in my life
for your approval & a smile is all that i strive
& in this life if you're let down by me then i am by myself
no more will i settle to the extent of lowering oneself
i long to fill the emptiness left by your lack of presence
though my childish ways are only pitiful attempts at supplements
like the euphoria of an addicts first high
i will chase that feeling only to be denied
there will never be another you, now that has come and gone
maybe if i sober up & wait it out one day I'll move on