Can't hold on to me (for him)

My eyes are pleading to be shut, but my mind is alive with thoughts of you.
Circling around, tearing my heart into...
Solely, because i know i will never have you.
We're always together, but all the same you're out of my reach.
What i wouldn't give to know what a minute or even a single second felt like in your arms.
I would let go of everything, everyone, risk it all, for a chance to fall with you.
But my predestined fate imprisons me, forever alone, seemingly unloved.
Why does love make us suffer?
An unwritten curse, completely unable to find your way out of.
Once it's grasp is on your heart strings, it will pull and twist them until you fall apart...
Never again will you find your missing pieces, for the one that got away stole them and kept them for themselves.
A secret, smoldering passion they'll bear, but you'll never know.
Cause you're endlessly searching for those pieces.
It's not enough that you offered your heart unto them freely.
They had to steal it and crush it in their beautiful hands.
Once white wings stained dark by the deception of your almost lover's heart....