People always say that they don't want to die but, if you think about it your going to die anyways so why not live up the life that you live.People are going to be saying that your going to hurt your self by doing it but honestly does it really matter?
Think of it this way your going to die anyways so why not help your self kill your self? Thats the saying that I thought of one night lying down in my bed and I realized that it is true so thats my life rule..
People always say to me why do you think like that why do you say that? i say it because i think it and i think it because i believe it is it really honsetly that hard?
if i could go back to a time that i almost died but i got saved i honsetly think that i would have tried to block the help..
and i think that if i were to be lying in a hospital bed right now and they said that there was a great possibility that i would live i honestly think that i would pull the i. vs out of my arms and the wires that were keeping me alive.
i think that i have been through enough and have suffered enough for one person in their life time and no one understands me.
When i talk about death they all just walk away and laugh it isn't fun. i wish that they would all just stop and leave me alone.
i want to run away and be free f**k the world they really arn't worth it. being hurt everyday? like honestly i don't think that i can deal with this anymore it is getting way to out of control for me to handle.
my parets are blaming it on me when it isn't even my fault they treat me like i am a slave i wish that i could just have a person spy on my hosue and see what i really honestly go through so someone would for once in my life know that i am not lying. i can't take this anymore. i dont want to deal with this anymore. i dont know any person my age or older that would be able to handle what i do on a day to day basis.
errrrr omg i really really cant even deal with this anymore it is over i dont think that i would care if anything would happen to them i think that i would be able to deal with that and that still wouldn't hurt as bad as they hurt me.
