I bottle my feelings

by Ashley Morris   Jun 1, 2004


I bottle my feelings.
They stay deep inside.
I put my mask on for the day.

No one sees the pain.
No one knows what I'm feeling.
No one sees my emotion.

I put on a mask.
I put on a smile.
I head out the door.
Off to school.

I had to bottle my feelings at age 5
I had to bottle my feelings.....
I had to take care of younger ones.

I hate that I do that.
I hate that I get scared to talk.
I hate that I build walls around me.

I build the walls to protect.
I build the walls to shield myself.
I build the walls to hide.

I can't tear down the walls.
I'm to scared to do that.
I'm scared I'll be hurt.

I want to take the walls down.
I want to trust the people.
I want to do everything...

I want to be a person who wasn't abused.
I want to be "normal".
I can't be that.

So, I'll keep pretending.
So, I'll keep the mask.
So, I'll keep smiling.

The days will go on.
And so will life.
I'll keep up and leave it at that.

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  • 20 years ago

    by LADY B

    wow, that sounds just like me, i have barriers blocking the world from me and to me it's for the best because i have let my guard down a couple of times and well i regreted it but life goes on. anyway, i really liked ur poem, plz keep writing.

  • 20 years ago

    by Amy

    Man, sweetie, I know just how you feel. I bottle everything inside....I have been since I was a little girl. I won't explain right now, but if you wanna know, I'll tell you. I know EXACTLY how you feel!! I have walls built around me...and when I took them down, I got hurt. Those walls are back up. I'm so sorry. You never have to worry about me hurting you. You can ALWAYS trust me and talk to me. I'm always here! Now and forever! I love you!
    Your friend ALWAYS,
    Amy

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