Beginning of the End

Here we are the beginning of the end
We've come so far and
accomplished so much but still I'm
Far from perfection, hurting you

Again and again, does it ever end?
Can't you see I'm trying?
Does it matter what I feel or only
The fact that you can't shake this feeling

I pray soon you'll see,
Soon you'll understand just what this
Is doing to me, the one you said you
Love so much more than life

Is it so hard to turn around and tell me
That you're proud of me, just once?
Or is it all about the mistakes I've made
And in your eyes keep making

I wish just this once it could be my choice
Not what you want from me
And I'm crazy to keep fighting when I know
I'll submit to your crazy schemes

Only to see you smile because my pain
Was never as important as yours
Oh, no, It never mattered quite as much
But I can't keep this up

Mother, You know my love for you is
Beyond any words and I hate to see you cry
But I'm crying too, without the tears
Holding onto your relentless fears

Please just trust me, oh please, this once
That I can make this decision
And live with the consequences if they arise