My Years

This sorrowful life means nothing to you
You just abandoned me
You don't bother to talk to me
Just looking through me like I'm clear

Pain trickles down
Don't you care?
You say you do
What a beautiful lie

Because of you
I put pain on myself
By picking up this blade
Forcing it on my skin

Still look through me
I'm just a nobody
Ask me if I'm ok
Then go on to the one you care about most

Every night I do this
Every day it sheds more
Every cry I've screamed
Leads to my fault in life

Heart broken little thing
Say you are sorry
That doesn't mean anything
Just saying it to make me happy

Caring?
That is what you do?
I never knew that
Well, you never did care for me

Once more I'm falling
Let me hit the ground hard
Let me go away
I hate this place

The conclusion I have
Is in my hand
Just one strike
And I can be gone forever

That's really want you want
You want me to go
No reason for me to stay here
Goodbye then 'friend'

Betrayer is all you'll ever be
Stoned through out my life
Rocks hit my core
The lava is rising higher than ever before

Let this water flow
Let it drain me completely
If it does what I want it to do
I can be gone

Showers of rain
Wash the lava away
Now it's back to solemn me
Who is lonesome

This sadness brings me to my comfort
Still found in my hand
I can force it once again
Or let it bleed as it touches skin

It brings pain
But that makes me whole
With out pain
I would be so hollow

Numbing me out
Nothing around me matters
Why can't it always be like this?
Staying here like I'm air

So this is how the story goes
I know it's not good
But who knows
Maybe one day everything will be gone from view

Hurt to Anger
Anger to Tears
Tears to Numbness
These are my years...