My life

Im tired of the shit that goes in my life every single day. people telling me what to do or what not to do.
Parents humiliating me and making me feel bad everychance they get,and in every single way.
Dad telling me that i ain't good enough,and that idk how to do shit. Of course he blames it on my mom saying that she never taugh me to do it on my own.
What he doesnt know is that she has taugh me more then hell ever know.
People tellin me that im always happy and smilling n that they've never seen me down.
what they don't know is that wen i come home i go to a different world.
Parents always comparing me to other people even family members,saying how they wished i was more like them,but guess what i don't.
if u say u want me to be more like them, den y da fuk don't u just give me away.
dad saying how im turning out just like my brother who doesnt want to study and doesnt wanna do anything with his life, then 5 mins later he says im their only hope.
wat da fuk? make up ur mind.
This is something no one can help me with not even my best friends even though they know what ive been going trough.
sometimes i wonder what would happen if i leave and try to a start a new life on my own, and acomplish things dat my parents though i was never going to do.
but ill never know unless i try it. but i wont not yet,not until the day my parents cross the line.
then i will fight this on my own