Amy, i am so sorry for your loss and pain. I know what it is like to lose a friend to suicide and like you i deal with pain and guilt on a day to day basis.
The what ifs are a killer, how you could of stopped him, how you should of said something, done something, anything.
I know how that feels too, but our friends killed THEMSELVES, i didnt kill mine and you didnt cause yours to die.
I guess the guilt is part of the grieving process and i hope you make it through that xx

oh my gosh

oh my gosh

oh my gosh

i'm so incredibly sorry :(