My mind aches with memories so full of you and I
The images feel pounded into my head
Trying to believe this cannot be our last good-bye
My eyes fill with tears from the thought of never seeing us the same
Our bond we had built obliviously
Confiding in each other through our pride and our shame
My ears crave your laughter and they sting from our hostility
I cannot bare us to be this way
I need us to go back to the way we used to be
My lips quiver and my heart feels ripped out of my chest
Your name on the tip of my tongue
As I move toward East and my heart pounds West
My lungs tainted as I smoke them dry
Trying to keep away todays thoughts of you
Only to find them anyway each passing night
My stomach lately empty and yet I still feel nauseous
The need to get you out of my system
Yet I cannot help but be that cautious
My hands shake and my legs do not seem able to still their pace
But I cannot make anything stop
For all of my body and mind are in this race
A race toward you and away
Caught in the in between
Of leaving your arms or allowing me to stay
I squeeze my swollen eyes shut I pull at my hair
I try to block you from me
Only to find you always there
I scratch at my skin The memory of your touch I can no longer bare
I scream I cry
You promised you would always be there
I rock myself back and forth whimpering for your memory to go away
Everything about you to just go
Don't you see how I cannot be with out you in this way?
I lay myself down accepting my defeat
And I wonder to myself
'if we were destined, then why in every way have you left me?'
I whisper to myself the questions that remain unanswered
What happened to us Hasan?
What happened to our happily ever after?
With out us in my life I feel am ill
I need to get over this
But I fear I cannot do what I do not will
I don't want to leave you I don't want you to leave me
But I cannot take this anymore
For my body My soul have become weary
I'll love you always no matter what the world may take
For you're not the other half of me you are the whole
I wouldn't have it any other way
And it is true you were once my lover and have always been my friend
For that I promise you
That destiny will one day choose us again
