Love?

Ever feel like you don't belong somewhere?
I do.
Everyday.
I feel that way at school.
Even at home.
Like, I`m too different for everyone.
Ever feel like you want to run away?
I do.
Everyday.
From home.
Never go back to school.
Never have to be in the places you feel most out of place.
Ever feel like you want to die?
I do.
Everyday.
Somewhere in the back of my mind, the feeling's still there.
Even though I`m happy with the way things are going.
I`m still not happy with where i am.
I tried to get away.
I tried a new home.
But, i've never felt more out of place before.
Even though they're family.
And, i love them.
I`m different than them all.
They all connect.
Like, it's supposed to be.
I don't have that.
Ever feel like you want to scream?
I do.
Everyday.
Out of frustration.
But, I don't.
Because,
I know it would cause problems.
So, I keep my mouth shut.
Ever feel like you want to hurt yourself?
I do.
Everyday.
But, I try my hardest not to.
Because,
I know it would also hurt the one person who actually pays attention.
The one person who would hold me while i`m crying.
And, be standing right there if i were to scream, and hit.
Ever feel like you're in love?
I do.
Everyday.
Every Hour.
Every minute.
Every second.
Because,
I am.
And, he keeps me here.
Holding on.
He gives me something to live for.
He graces me with his beautiful smile.
And, I`m happy.
He saves me from myself.
He's everything.
And much more.
I love him.

-Sammiie.