I Failed

You eat at me,
You just wait for me to fail.
You love to watch me pop those pills,
You love to watch me slit my wrist.

I will fail no more.
Just wait and see.
Take a look,
See what all I can be.

You want me to quit eating again,
You count on it.
You laugh as I eat two bites and quit.
You love to sit and watch.

I will fail once more,
That's all,
I promise.
You'll see.

I cut again,
Are you happy?
You love that,
I know you do.

I did not eat today.
I pushed my plate away.
You loved every moment of it,
I know it.

I have failed at this.
But this is the last time,
I can feel it this time,
Everything's different.

I popped more pills today,
What more can I say?
You made me,
Your voice is too strong.

I failed.
I know what you're thinking,
She's never gonna succeed,
But I will watch me.

I know you love it when I fail,
You enjoy watching it.
You dig your nails into me,
You yell till I do what you want.

I haven't failed yet today,
And you're upset.
I only know this because you're me,
And I am you.

You're my inner demon,
You're everything I hate.
Every tear I've shed it's all because of you.
But this is my final goodbye to you.

Go find someone else,
This is the real me.
You're pure hate,
You're my inner demon.

This time I have not failed.