Crushed into a million

I sit staring out this clouded window,
Thinking about nothing in paticular.
They make it look so easy,
Just to forget,
But just to face the truth,
Crushes me into a million pieces.
I look in the mirror to a shattered soul.
No one said it would be easy,
But no one said it would break me.
This life is nothing like wonderland,
I never expected this.
So what have I done to deserve this?