Never

Never
Never have I cried so much. Cried to the point of feeling sick.
Never have I felt so much pain. Pain that dwarfs every other pain I have ever felt.
Never have I questioned God so much. How could he allow something like this happen?
Never have I liked the feeling of a blade sliding across my wrist so much. Hoping that it would ease the first pain.
Never have I felt so empty inside. Nothing more than a hollow shell.
Never have I wanted someone back so badly. I would do anything for them, but I am powerless.
Never have I wanted to die so badly. Wanting to make it all go away forever.
Never.