*hug*

I'm here for u teddy

(and u are very pretty)

Gabbyyy, I hope this isn't real, but I think it is. ><

I can understand it though. Almost every line, I can understand and I've been there.

I have a confession to make
that you're not going to understand.
I only halfway believe in God
he feels so far from where I stand.
`` I've always believed in God, but I have had times when it felt like He wasn't there, like He was busy somewhere else, and I just didn't matter. I know different now, though.

Do you understand taht now?
Because that's problem number one.
How bout number two...?
That's the smoking gun.
`` Little typo, "taht" should be "that". I've been through thoughts of suicide, and one attempted suicide, it was stupid, but that was.. four years ago. Wow it doesn't seem like that long ago. ><

I hate everything about me,
what with my lack of ability to verbalize.
Do you understand THAT?
Because there's tears pouring from my eyes.
`` I've definitely been here. I use to hate myself with a passion and thought everything was my fault and I could just do nothing right. I still feel like that at times, but it's rare.

I kind of wish I could run into the rain
and slip and fall and have it end.
Just wish that I could blow this off,
tell you "Talk to you later, friend".
`` Giving up is not a good feeling. Sometimes you just want to say "F-ck this" and give up, but keep fighting, because it's worth it.

I'm jealous of the best thing
that's ever happened to me.
She's beautiful and wonderful
anyone could see.
`` Um, I'm not sure who you're talking about here, but I get the feeling it's one of your friends. I've been jealous of so many people, especially my friends. It didn't do me a whole lot of good, because I'd just keep it bottled up, pretending that I was okay. Now I don't have very many friends left.

And everyone seems better,
better than me at my f-cking best.
But you wouldn't understand that,
because maybe you're just like the rest.
`` This goes back to the feelings of feeling worthless, like you can't do anything right. I think most everyone goes through this at some time in their lives, but I know it hurts.

I don't mean to blow you off.
I don't mean to push you away.
I just don't know how to say the things
that I feel I need to say.
`` I've also distanced myself from people. It feels good at first, because you have time alone to just be by yourself and think, figure things out, but then you get lonely, so lonely, and there's no one there.

Everything is building up,
that song was just the pretty cherry on the top.
I just want to make it go away...
just want to make it stop.
`` That last line, I've repeated to myself so many times..

Sorry about the whole "I know how it feels" thing. I just don't want you to feel alone. I've gone through a lot of this stuff, and believe me it will get better. Just try to hold onto your friends with everything you have, because they're a part of you. You need them and they need you. *huggles* I hope you're okay. ><

Haha, if this wasn't true I probably look really stupid right now. Oh wells. x]

This was a very heartfelt and emotional poem. You definitely have a talent with putting emotions into poems.

Keep writing!
Cayce

<3

I have a confession to make
that you're not going to understand.
I only halfway believe in God
he feels so far from where I stand.

^^^ Loves you should never just halfway believe in God, I know I may not really be much in the bible or going to church that often. I know that even though he is so far away he will always be there for you. Just never feel he is not there or not helping you love because he always is.

Do you understand taht now?
Because that's problem number one.
How bout number two...?
That's the smoking gun.

^^^ First line you spell that* wrong. If you are meaning a real real gun. That is not the way to go, trust me on that one. Never grab that gun loves, its just one of the biggest mistakes to ever want to do or think about in your life.

I hate everything about me,
what with my lack of ability to verbalize.
Do you understand THAT?
Because there's tears pouring from my eyes.

^^^ Don't say that you hate everything about you hun... I say that a lot and know what I realize. It fixes nothing at all.. you can hate your self so much but in the end who is going to love you after no one else does. The second line the "what" didn't seem to fit with me. Read it more from the word with. Don't cry, remember I am always always going to be here for you. You and I will get through all our this pain and sorrow together. Just don't make the mistake of hating everything about your self because once you fall in it, it will be so hard to come out of it.

I kind of wish I could run into the rain
and slip and fall and have it end.
Just wish that I could blow this off,
tell you "Talk to you later, friend".

^^^ Aww, I will be there to catch you if you fall or slip in the rain hun. To let you know that things will be alright. I will do my best to help you through every thing that is bringing you down loves.

I'm jealous of the best thing
that's ever happened to me.
She's beautiful and wonderful
anyone could see.

^^^ Loves you are beautiful and wonderful inside and out. Don't let jealousy get to you, it brings out the worst in people. It really does... BUT remember you are beautiful, amazing and very very wonderful.

And everyone seems better,
better than me at my _______ best.
But you wouldn't understand that,
because maybe you're just like the rest.

^^^ Hun, no person is better then the person next to them or around them. You are best at the person you are. Who you are, you can be better at everything and anything. No not every one will understand but so few will. You just have to believe that some one like that is out there.

I don't mean to blow you off.
I don't mean to push you away.
I just don't know how to say the things
that I feel I need to say.

^^^ Instead of keeping it inside Gabby, Let it out. Say what you feel, let out your anger, happiness, saddness. Just everything that you want to stay inside. Letting it out will help more. If it makes you feel better. If you have the need to yell. Yell at me, if you have the need to cry then cry to me. If you are too happy that words can not describe then come be happy with me. I will always be here if you ever need to do that loves. Remember that.

Everything is building up,
that song was just the pretty cherry on the top.
I just want to make it go away...
just want to make it stop.

^^^ Gabby, I know you want it to go away and stop, only the thing is not everything will. You have to make it go away and stop. You have to learn to let it go, to set it free. Get it out of your mind and body or it will always be there. One day Gabby, you and I are going to go on top of a high mountain and scream out every thing we have ever felt. Just let everything we were hiding out and free. Let it go into the sky where it will slowly disappear and never be with us again. Only in a slow and fading memory of what use to be.

[[excuse the ____ wouldnt let me post with that word in it]]

Well
Im not going to leave that long of a comment,
but i will leave one.

I love it
and Ive felt like that before.
Feels better to let it out huh?

I loved it