Days come and go and I still miss you so,
The pain is unbearable more than you'll ever know...
And in some of my dreams, I go back to that day
When your hourglass ran out and you went away...
My smile shattered with one single phone call,
Denial worked but not for long at all...
The allies in town were never this dark before,
I had no idea what I kept running for...
I kept telling myself that I'd find you sitting alone,
I kept telling myself that I wouldn't do this on my own...
But time kept ticking and my heart kept sinking,
I was tired of hurt, tired of tears, tired of thinking...
I didn't talk for days, not even to God... I was so mad!
He took the most important friend I had!
Why should I PLAY fair when he always wins!
After you left, every day was just more and more sins...
Matt, I've screwed up since you had to leave,
I've done things that you wouldn't even believe!
People care but the only person I want to see is YOU!
So what the hell does God want me to do?
I dream of you a lot of night, some nice, some sad...
It makes me remember the friendship that we had...
The great times together and the "first love" fling as kids,
Nothing seems right, and nothing ever is...
I long to see you smile just one more time,
To feel your hand interlock with mine...
It makes no sense why God broke our hearts,
I've never got around to pick up my shattered parts...
I've been running on an empty heart and it hurts,
This depression is only getting worse...
I fake a smile everyday because that is what you'd want me to do,
This person I am who people love is all in memory of you...
