Heart beats out of sync

I'm sorry,
You will be hearing that a million times.
but only if you knew,
the pain behind these rhymes.

you never will,
because I refuse to show.
just my fears,
they just won't let me go.

every word I've ever said,
They have all been 100% true.
every line you've read,
has been devoted to you.

seeing you with her,'
just makes me scared.
seeing the words said,
you can tell she cared.

minds wandering,
thinking that you will leave.
do what's best for you,
I wear this heart on my sleeve.

just want to tell you,
you mean more to me than you know.
I'm not giving up,
I'm not letting this go.

so lie in her arms,
thinking I don't have a clue.
but stay with me,
cause I just want to be with you.