As i sit in the dark!!

As i sit hear in my room in the dark!
thinking about my life!
thinking of all the wrong things i have done and how much i have disrespected my mother!

she has been there 4 me no matter what!!
she trys her best to get me every thing i want!
and when she askes me to do some thing i have
an attitude about it!!:-(

i am really trying to change so me and my mother can have a good relation ship!

if she died i would be so sad and hate my self!
for treating her like crap and having attitude with her when she askes me to do some thing!!
after she had got me some thing that i have wanted even when she did not have the money really!

so i am REALLY REALLY TRYING TO CHANGE FOR GOOD!!!!