Better off dead? ? ?

My world is caving in and tears fall from my eyes

i'm lying with my baby but she wont hear my cries

my thoughts are scattered and my heads a mess

if i never wake i couldn't care less

i'm pretending to stand but i know inside i'm falling

into the dark its her name that i'm calling

i'm not sure where i'm at life feels like a game

but to be honest the rules are all rather lame

i'm so sick of all my tears the pain and the blood

you push me down further and i'm covered in mud

its not like it matters if i live of die

just promise to my heart that you will not lie

i wonder why i'm a mess and can hardly stand

what happened to the life that i had so well planned

there are so many thoughts running clean through my head

and sometimes i wonder would i be better off dead? ? ?