Sometimes it just grabs me
and I cant escape
this continuous abuse
I have to hide and try fake...
I always believe that it will
get better or that it was my fault
not realizing the ongoing guilt...
I made myself feel as if I was
the one to blame,
continuing to say i love you even
tho i feel so ashamed.
Bruises and cuts fill my body.
I am still with you to prevent being lonely.
you put me in a trance
one that I just couldn't escape
you manipulated me into
believing it was all okay...
So when were all falling and
theres no where to go
we find ourself walking on a self
inflicted death row
trying to acknowledge and act as if its
not real...feeling so delusional
and trying to deny your abusive self...
somethings aren't fine...
Its your delusional abuse...
Its your unacceptable excuse...
Its the real truth...
