Time
There was a time I could say he was mine, a time I could say there was sumthin between us that remained undefined. A time I cud say he loved me, A time I cud say I probably loved him too.
There was a tym I cud have sed so much, but I remained quiet, and drowned these confessions in my own silence and now all im tryin to do is give you subliminal messages of what Im attempting to say, but i cant find the courage to speak when you ask if im okay.
I feign happiness on my face while tears are piercing at my eyes and im tryin to unleash these unspoken words but find it easier to hide behind my jokes and a smile.
Wishing I can go back to that night wen we were in eachothers arms ready to give myself to you, mentally and emotionally,only needing the reassurance that you felt the same way to, or if it was only me.
If I had known that I was gonna lose you, that it would all end so soon, I would have held you a bit closer, a little tighter, a little longer. I would have hid you in my heart for you to become my heart beat, just to make sure that you'd never leave me.
I wish I would have had the guts just to say I love you instead I said goodbye thinking it best you never knew. And I was left alone singing along to the sounds of rain drops that seem to coincide with the beating of this empty heart.
If anything ive learned from this game is how to lie to the world that this love thang is not for me, but I cant seem to convince my heart that so foolishly keeps falling for people who arent willing to catch me, and how those silly little rhymes about how love is a crazy thing seems to fit into this piece perfectly cuz ive learned its all better to be left unsed then for you to discover me, and how a tear spotted paper can speak louder than any poetry
Time
Thats what I said I'd give him... Time
Because in time id hope he'd see that I am all he'll ever need, but in reality Time became the enemy, b/c in time he realized he could never replace her, with me.
