I was so scared of failing i don't know what is right anymore, i studied most of my life and never reached my goals, always compared to someone never loved for being me, its a daunting thing for a someone of just 19, everything i ever wanted is so far away ill do what ave done all my life and do whats expected of me, i don't know what i want, and am lonely and am scared, i fear that ill end up with nothing but despair, i think about this often and only wonder what if, what if i had the courage to speak out and say ill do what i want ill do what i need cause if i fail then i have giving everything i can.
