Time has passed but stood still

Today marks that dark day.... you were taken from us.
Its been 4 years today.... i still expect to hear your voice on the phone.... or to be knocking on your door...

I know deep down your gone.... it just seems like no time has passed at all and that your still here with me....
I can replay all my memories and somehow feel the warmth of your hugs....

You weren't my lover... but i loved you
You were no child.... but you could play like one
You were my family.... my grandmother
cancer stole you from us... and i still cry inside after all this time

I remember your smiling face... your laugh
Your delight at my company....
You showing me how to treat a garden... give it life....

I remember all those memories of sleep overs
learning... but having fun
making a mess... but laughing anyway
and all our naughts and crosses games...

I remember the jelly and kitchen fun
I remember the way you brushed your fingers through my hair to calm me down so i could sleep...
I remember your kindness, and you beliefs
I remember so much about you....

this wound doesn't seem to heal.... time seems to pass and yet stand still from that day you left me here without another chance to make you smile, by just being me