When Will I Wake up

When will I wake up,
to realize it will never happen?
When will I wake up
to something real?
When will I wake up
to love,to happiness?
WHEN WILL I WAKE UP!?!?
I want to wake up to you,
us,everyday of my life.
But when will i wake up
to know this is a grim lie i have told myself:
that i had a chance with you,
that i could change you.
When will I wake up from this awful nightmare?
Please, someone, help me wake up.