I Want to Show You

I want to show you my sorrow
I want to show you my agony
I want to show you my pain
I want to show you the constant heartache

I have tried talking
I have tried writing
I have tired crying
I have tried to ignore it
I have tried to get over it

No, I need to show you
I need you to know how it burns to the center
How my core aches with every breath

I grasp a blade
Ten inches in length
I hold it to the soft skin of my forearm
I press it deep

Pulling it length-wise down my arms
It cuts sure, through my skin like a blade through a sheet

I watch the valleys swell and flood
Streams over run and fall to the floor
Staining the carpet, just as my heart

I proffer my arms
See baby, I say, this is what is inside
This is the hurt this is the pain, the heartbreak

I search for your eyes
I wail, look at my pain!
Look at my love, dont you understand?

I dont want another girl
I dont want a man
I dont want to live
I just want YOU

I beg you to see me
But you are a wall
The agony, I can stand no more

I grab the claws
Throw then over my shoulders
I drag them up my back
No force needed

A devastation
Streams of pain

I fall to my knees
I beg you, forgive me
I only tried to show you, my pain, my love
I wanted you to see how much I love YOU
How much I need YOU

I need you in my love
I want no other

I miss the light of my life
I miss the sun on my horizon
I miss the your love

Save me I beg
Love me I cry
Hold me in your strong arms, hold my tight
Pull me close to you; let me feel your warmth
Heel my pain, whisper in my ear of the love I know is true

Let me live again
Give me back my Peter Pan
Let me love you and feel your love
I only want to show you, my love