Beauty into Dust

I was surrounded by an impenetrable darkness, with the unnerving feeling of falling.
Fear paralyzed my heart in a compressing grip and with each passing second it felt as if it would shatter.
I was blind in the world raging around me, blind to the person within, blind to all...but the colorful portrait painted
by the deceiving.
I was naive, and I paid for it....
My frantic hands searched for something sturdy to hold onto... but everything crumbled to ash in my hands...
I wasn't to be saved. I would fall into the fiery pits of hell, and no one would care.
No one would come looking...
Despair, bitter and choking, attacked my mind.
My chipped and broken nails scraped along the dirt and rock, trying to get a better hold;but failed.
My feet flailed in the empty air beneath, and my stomach churned.
It's so high!
The air seemed to get denser, hotter making it uncomfortable to breath...
It wouldn't be long now. My death was fast approaching. I would either suffocate, or my tiring arms
fall limp from the rock edge and plunge me faster to the rocks below.
An image flashed within my mind, his face beautiful, smiling, serene...
Would he miss me at all? or had he already moved on to her?
The beautiful unimaginable beauty I would never be...
Her the perfection he wants and deserves...
Tears burned hot paths down my cheeks...
My frozen heart shattering with a whip like crack.
And then I was falling...
Air whipped and spiraled around me, lashing my bruised flesh as I made a soundless plummet to my doom.
There was no scream, no screech to pierce the silence; I expected it... and in some ways accepted it.
My legs flail and my hands claw wildly through the air; useless.
I hear the thud before I feel it...
and then there is pain; mind numbing, paralyzing pain.
Pain Everywhere.
Pain becoming [Everything].
The last thing I hear is a blood curdling scream; my own heartbroken lament
before my pale lids close over blank and broken eyes...

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I'm just coming out of along writers block, and this is what I came out with.I'd like to the Lanna for the tittle. I hope you enjoy it. please comment and vote.

-Elly.