Nightmares and angels

Looking blindly around me,
not seeing any of the sights,
pain welling up in my chest
and sobs tearing at my throat
as the tears silently fall to the ground.

Thinking I was well past this
but clearly I'm simply not,
memories flash through my mind
like the cars of a freight train,
the tears flow even faster.

Voices and feelings and long ago days,
everything I've worked so hard to forget
all becoming fresh in my mind,
demons and ghosts of long past choices
surge at me in the dark.

I can feel the claws of the hideous beasts
ripping and tearing and biting
at every inch of my body and mind,
slowly but surely destroying me
and a sob finally escapes my sore throat.

Curled in a ball on the floor
leaning against a wall holding myself,
all alone in this world of darkness
where it feels like no one can save me,
can even see me at all.

I hear a sound like the strum of music
and the demons stop attacking,
I left my head from my bruised arm slowly,
wipe at the rivers of tears down my face
and in front of me all I see is bright light,

Tender and loving arms touch me
and a whisper in a loving voice
"Hush now I'm here, no more need to fear
I'll help you fight this, we'll do it together"

Guardian angels were fairy tale creatures,
or so I used to believe,
I met one sent to me down from above
and now I can't help but believe.

He taught me hope and gave me love,
is the lighthouse in the storm,
he promised me he'd hold my hand
and never leave me scared and alone,

Over a year now since he came
and never has he let me down,
I no longer fight with nightmarish things
because my life is so full of light,
I've finally found joy and peace.