Take It With You

You peice together my very existence.
A part of you will always live within me.
And that part has always stopped me.
From doing things I would regret.

You are my blood and tears.
You are every breath I take.
You are my heart and soul.
The best mistake I'll ever make.

Sometimes, I wish you'd kill me.
So I wouldn't have to kill myself.
I've endlessly tried.
It wasn't choice that was dealt.

I am so cowardly selfesh.
That I expect everything to hurt me.
More than it effects anyone else.
I know it's not true.
My mind works a different way..

Sorry for my foolishness.
I can't help my heart constantly hating.
I'm sorry I throw you away.
You must think I don't feel the same.

How this all started.
I'm not quite sure.
But it's your life that I'm taking.
Taking it down with me.

I am my own sacrifice.
Things that naturally happen.
Things I have to let happen.
Things I don't want to happen.

It's apart of me altogether.
And part of shame.
That won't fade my conscience.
My mind will get use to this.

It's never been the same.
Though in a way, it has.
If I love you, I'll let it die.
And I'll annilate the feelings.
That vanquish me so coldly.

Still I stay.
I hope and pray for you.
Even when I run away.
Don't show me you know.
Even though I know it.

Don't panick, it's your keeping.
Take care of my life.
I've left it with you.
The rest has gone to hell.
My friend, take care.