I never knew...

I never knew
that i could paint the stars in the sky,
with a simple wave of my hand,
in a blink of an eye.

i never knew
that i could run across the field green,
without breaking a sweat,
running as far as my eyes have seen.

i never knew
that i could scream so hard and not be heard,
while sounding calm and collected,
without having said a single word.

i never knew
that i could touch your hand,
squeeze it,
while i'm so far away right where i stand.

i never knew
that i could kiss your lips,
by just looking at you,
while living this surreal trip.

i never knew
that i could die right now, content,
be nonchalant,
even with what my life has only seemingly spent.

i never knew
that i could do these impossible dreams,
these inconceivable things,
melodramatic schemes.

i never knew
that i could adore your sadistic side,
and find myself slipping in
to your torturous rollercoaster ride.

i never knew
that i could see the devil within,
that different side of you,
your true blood with red sin.

i never knew
that i could sell you my soul,
let you rip me into shreds
and allow you tear my heart a black hole.

i never knew
that i could,
i never knew
that i would,

i never knew
that i should,
i never knew
that i...............misunderstood.