My Emotions</3

My depression.
why must you make me go through it?
you made my heart split.
you made me feel like shit.
i had you once, but i lost you the moment i had you.

my rejection.
it seems like NO is the new smile upon someones face.
as if i have nothing better else to do, but to count the tears that have now, settled in their place.
every thought brings your face to mind.
every possible way i try, its you i can never seem find.

my obsession.
is it when i see you
the first thing i must do is smile?
when it seems like my feelings for you grew
and i cant help but to notice, you've been in my thoughts for more than a while.
yet reality hits my with the truth, that i can never have you.

my confession.
i wanna say i love you so bad.
but its harder to know that if i do, ill scare you away.
we're really good friends now, your making me jump into conclusions by your actions.
I'm going through crazy emotions..
my love for you, is the reaction