The time has come, I feel pain and I feel numb... I hurt more then anyone would ever think I would... give me
advice on what to do or what I should do. I saw a future with you and so did you with me... people interfere and now you
wont talk to me... I would hold you close and tight, let you scream and cry, till you feel right. I would help you
through college and life... you once imagined being my wife, someday, as I learned from you and you learned from me
nothing brought you down or made you un-happy. Your young and I know that, I'm not mad sweetheart just hurt and upset,
upset with the fact I was looked upon in the wrong way... He wouldnt give me the time or even ride the motorcycle with me anyday.
But I tried and you know that... to give up anything outside of your comfort zone was too much for you, and I'm learning to
cope with that, I gave up alot and with no regrets. The woman who said so much, and promised so many things wont even give
me the time of day even when her phone rings... I want to ask how you are, are you in pain? and how is your heart...I'm
leaving soon, not by choice, if you asked me to wait for you my heart would melt like ice, but i doubt that day
will come. I hope I make people proud when im dressed in green, with a bible in my hand you in my heart and
my M-16. I'll do my best and never give up, you know im not a quitter its not in my book, I'll stand strong and
tall with a pondering look, did I make the right choice? are you doing ok? I cant wait at home, it will drive me insain.
I wish your parents liked me, I wish you wouldnt care what they think because I'll be honest this really stinks...
my promis to you that if I make it to heaven befor you I'll tell our child all about you, how there mom is so pretty
and how you can burp better then me and how you helped me, made me and changed me, and how the first thing you said that night
with tears in your eyes... I'm sorry I couldnt give you a baby. And I said thats alright, for in my head I knew god
has a plan and he knows best, its just a hard part of life and evrything is a test. So you know how I feel, me not so much
you say a few words and then clam up but you're getting better and I really like that, thank you so much, I miss you alot,
your love...your touch.
