Lost

I begin to grit my teeth
as I hide what's underneath.
Behind my long blond hair I will hide
as a result of feeling denied.

Sometimes I worry and get quiet and sad
as I contemplate if I said something bad.
I tell others more than what I tell you
in fear of receiving a bad review.

I don't want to be bothersome or weird,
like just another issue that appeared.
You make me nervous and not sure how to act.
What I fear most of all is how you'll react.

I guess I'm just too paranoid and shouldn't feel this way,
but it's hard to avoid when it's every other day.
I suppose it is the cost of an "I love you",
so for the time being I don't know what to do.