Sitting in my room all alone.... what the hell am i doing here.... this life I'm living has me thinking... why am i even here.... being treated like a slave... hardly getting to do things my way... another day equals less control... I'm tossing turning slowly i am burning... what i feel i once had... the strength i would always find... i can no more... for i am permanently sore... like I'm paralyzed.. pushing on yet starting to fail... the willingness to live to survive is just not there... can't keep this battle going... when i fear the someone i need is not there... that someone I'm yet to find... someone who can truly relate understand... this illness the extent it could mean... as i try to deal with being a threat to myself and those i love... i think this battles better being lost... then everyone will be safe... just wanna say goodbye cruel world... push all the pain away.... never to return again
