Clouds of thoughts

Darkness,
comes all around me
it takes over,
i cant see the skies,
above me
it takes my thoughts
it takes my mind
as it starts to rewind my life
from infant baby,
daddy left
mommy and me,
he deserted being a dad
to the
terrible twos,
were me and my cousins were running around
breaking stuff
taring it to the ground
to starting school
it was so new
didn't expect it,
had no clue
then 5th grade started to come around
it was like wow
up until now,
8th grade,
and I'm breaking down
Ive made my mistakes,
its swallowed me whole
and i still wonder
why i still love you
as the clouds of thoughts,
swallow me whole..