Its getting harder and harder everyday
trying to please you and becoming
someone i never thought i can turnout to be
what i feel in my heart is joy, happiness, and secured
but at the same time i feel sadness, emptiness, and guilt...
*** joy because you can possibly be my other half.
Happiness because you're the first person i let myself open my heart to again.
And secured because you make me feel safe and comfortable when im with you....
.................but at the same time...............................
***Sadness because i feel you dont really want me as me
emptiness because i feel there is a piece of me missing i think you are trying to change cuz you dont like or want....
And guilt because i feel like im lying to myself and not being true by not staying the way i am...
i know in my heart that your something extremely great and positive
but in my mind i feel so confused and like a puzzle missing its piece
im hoping my heart over powers my mind
and maybe there are some answer to these crazy thoughts
maybe my confusion is coming from the thought of breaking my wall to let you in
maybe you are the piece im missing
~But all i know in my HEART is that with each day that passes that i DONT see you.....
I MISS YOU
~every night before i close my eyes....
I THINK OF YOU
~every morning when i wake up
I WANNA HEAR YOUR VOICE
~and every time i see you
I CANT HELP BUT SMILE
if this is what humans feel when they are "IN LOVE" then these are feeling i never want to lose
i dont know if its too early to say it but this is how you make me feel
