The story of my messed up life
i lose the ones close to me
i lose the ones i Care about
i runaway from trust I go toward fear
i am scared of love
i love to much
my life is crazy
and darkened by hate
i want to die
i want to live
i want to runaway
i want to stay
i scream and cry
i smile and laugh
i don't understand why
i know to much
i understand so little
i want him
i cant have him
i miss her
i can trust her
i say one thing
i do another
the end of this life is near
