If only she could tell him
if only she was able
to let her thought go
and out in to this forgotten world
if only she was allowed
if only she could
if only
if only
they knew what she was
if they understood her reason
if the scars and tears were not meant to be
then why are they there
if the pill were not meant to be taken in bulk
then what are they for
if you didn't want me
then why did you say it
if they understood why
then they would never look at me with those unforgiving eyes
why did i take the pills
why did i cut with the razor
why did i drink the alcohol
why did i lose the sensations of life
i did because of the pain you caused
and i will do it again if i have to
to stop the pain from coming back in my life
