What have I done to you,
I see the tears falling from your eyes,
like the rain falls from the Sky's,
I never meant to hurt you,
i don't know whats wrong with me,
you deserve a better big sister,
all i do is cause you pain
at yet all you do is love me...
why....how.....
can you love a person like me?
I'm so bad to you for no reason
Its like i use you as a punching bag
i don't want to i really don't
and i always try not to
its just that i have no control when I'm mad
I wish i did so much...
I wish i was like you...so loving and nice...
but I'm not...i don't know how to be like that...
I'm sorry i hurt you.
I'm trying to change...
I'm going to do right by you...
I'm tired of seeing you cry
I'm tired of it being because i did something
I'm tired of messing up
its time for a change
and i will change
ill change for you, for mom and dad,
ill change for ME.
