When the sun rises i know that Ive gone another day without breaking down.
I change into my pajamas.
i check my e-mails hoping that you've sent me something.
i lay in my bed and try to not cry myself to sleep.
but then i get a text from your best friend
"gabby, how the hell can you break up with him just because of that little thing?!"
i tell him to leave me alone.
Noon comes and my mom tells me to get ready for lunch.
i change into my day cloths and paint a smile on my face.
i walk out and smile they all think I'm ok
I'm with them until they go to sleep at night.
But when the sun goes down....i sit downstairs on the floor next to the t.v.
i get a phone call and its my friend.
"hey gabs. you doing any better today." and thats all it takes to make me cry.
i stay on the phone with him until he needs to go to bed.
i cry and cry all night 'till i cant cry anymore.
then i go upstairs and i grab the bottle and whisper
"just another night with you again....."'
i sit on the couch and drink till the bottles empty.
the i see the sun rise and smile
"Ive gone another day without you"
*sigh*
..............................i start another day............................
