Why cant i move on

I love him so much...yea i broke his heart and I'm so sad and i want him to be here..i just want to kiss him..and i just want to say i love you every time i talk to him on the phone..why did i hurt you..why does are friends come in are relationship...and break us apart...i would have gave you my life..i want to marry you..you have been there and i haven't..I'm so sorry that i left but now i want to come back..cause i wont have no life without you,,i need you...i want to stop crying every night i just want to sleep....i just want to be with you every time i feel lonely are sad...i just want you to be with me when i sleep..i just want to sleep again