Who am i

Why do i ask who i am...i feel like i am not wanted...i wish i could just be with the person that i want to be with...but i don't think thats ever going to happen....i feel like when flowers die like ever thing Else does....with sadness on ever ones face...when people don't think before they do something and then they regret it...but you can't go back in time and change any thing...you just have to deal with it and get over it some way...sometimes it feels like i am losing myself and who i once have been...i am just scared and hurt inside ...sometimes i have no idea what i am doing...and then i hurt someone...cause i don't think before i do some stuff...and then i fall apart again with nothing Else to say....you are just lost in your self....when you think something is the truth and then you know its a lie and fall away with a broken heart...when you have nothing to find...words hurt me more then anything...but my broken heart hurts me every time i think with nothing to say cause words can hurt you the most...and i didn't know that but now i do...i am so scared that i am losing my best friend...who am i...i just don't want to feel any thing with sorrow in every life....but when you know people that you love that will be by your side...will i ever be happy again..i will wait 4 the person i love...cause i know thats all i can do...cause i just don't want to mess up again...i just want to be who i am... not this sad girl that feels nothing...and she just wants her dreams to go away...cause she thinks that nothing is left for her..why does he get the best of me...why does this one person hurt me the most...when he says something to me it means alot to me...why can he make me smile and make me happy and make me cry...why is it this only person that i will truely love with my heart...and why did i hurt him and it kills me inside that i know that i did that..it hurts every time i see him..and he was my best friend..i loved him with all my heart..and it hurts so bad cause i still do hurt him till this day.