I've never had a regret in my life.
Not getting my heart broken,
Not hurting myself,
Not being alone.
Except,
One...
Losing You.
I can't even reach you anymore;
Can't hug you;
Can't talk to you;
I'm way past losing you.
You walked in,
When my skies were a dull, navy blue.
You were my rainbow,
Giving me hope and happiness.
You took away my pain and sorrow,
Gathered the pieces of my heart,
And mended what was Broken.
& what couldn't be given back,
You gave me a new one in return.
A smile would wash over my face,
Every time I saw your name on Caller Id.
We'd talk till past ten,
Questioning each other about Best Friends.
You introduced me to them;
And we got along just Fine.
It used to be the five of us,
Sitting in your downstairs basement.
You were never embarrassed,
Showing me off to everyone,
Even though I was the kid,
The one that "I've never seen..."
You were always there to protect me,
Warm me up when I was cold.
Stand my ground,
Even if I felt I didn't belong.
Sure, we hung out in different circles;
You were that prep,
I was that "No name" girl.
You always had a billion girls after you;
Lusting over your every Move.
But somehow, my feelings for you,
You felt it too.
It was my own fairytale come true.
You were my prince charming,
& I was your "Cinderella".
You told me things,
"Nobody knows besides you."
What we had,
I thought was Real.
When you told me:
"My heart only beats like this when you're around."
When you walked me to every class,
Or you'd always make sure I got home safe.
You didn't know much of me,
Didn'tknow how I felt.
I didn't get to tell you much,
In the few days we spent together.
I never showed how much I cared for you.
Or got to stand up for you; like you did Me.
I wasn't there to protect you, like you rescued Me.
But in the end,
Out story came to a stop, reversed, erased.
You wiped out those memories of me,
And left me to go back to the hell I was in before.
This time, you didn't rescue me,
Or save me like those times before.
This time; it was for real, our goodbye.
I barely blinked an eye,
And we were back to before,
Not even knowing each other's Core.
I don't regret dating you;
I could swear I'd do it all over again,
Even if the hurt was ten times worst.
You gave me what was a piece of you,
A part of your life,
That you can't have back.
You let me feel,
Like I mattered;
Like I belonged, in your heart.
You showed me exactly what I needed,
What I want.
You've sent me on a life search,
For a love like yours.
But if I were to say my one regret:
Not having you here.
If only I had trusted you,
Listened to what you were saying.
If only I could turn back time,
And get back those moments we had.
But I Can't ,
& life doesn't give second chances.
So I guess,
I'm saying Bye.
'Cause Hello is too long to write...
I don't know if I'll ever fully let you go.
But I'm doing the best I can.
So here's to being Friends;
& if we can't even be that,
Then here's to the good times; back then.
