To you .

The day you're gone ,
I missed the name I used to call
out loud and dearly .
I always thought it's by my side that you want to be.
I always thought it's all about you and me .
But there's another "she" ,
wasn't it too obvious , my dear ?

Every time I felt like overdriven ,
every time I allowed myself to cry ,
Something called "fear" stopped me .
[... 'cause you're not here
[... to wipe off my tears .]
[ not anymore ]

...

The sun had refused to shine upon me .
The rain recently been a friend of mine .
And though I said "I'll be fine ,
so will my life be full of sunshine ."
But the chill of the autumn wind was still
by my side and denied to leave .

...

One day I woke up ,
heard the birds whispering in my ear .
Opened up my windows with no fear ,
and felt the light breathing on my face .
It's not too late to be fine again .

...

I could have had a better ending ,
but once again , you show up .
... with the face I missed so much ...
... with the hands I used to hold on tight ...
... with the smell I always loved ...
... with the voice I always wanted to hear .
And with the kiss that I've been longing for ...
You've brought me back
To the pain I've just snapped out of .
And with your sweetness ,
tenderly yet strongly ,
You've pulled me back into your arms .

You are as sweet as you always be ,
And I've always loved you the way I loved you .
But no , no , no
I won't let you in again .
It's a fool that I don't want to be .
It's you that don't belong to me ,
and that's the fact that we both see .

...

If there were an actual wish
I would wish that you would be
by my side , day and night ,
and together we would shine .

If there were an actual wish
That could make you forever mine .
It would be what I wanted the most ,
and the only thing I refused to have .