Experinces without my vioce

Life hasn't always gone my way
Experiences happening without my say
Ignored once & always ignored twice

was a child but never felt like one
felt like a toy
that people would use & destroy
and leave to rust in the sun

when i wanted to be in the sky
like the shinning stars i use to
point at to mummy & daddy

I thought a had a normal little life
that things i experienced was apart of life

I grew up
and felt & release
what really happened
who & what came into my life

nothing but bad memories

flash backs of experiences i had no say in

i thought things couldn't get worse

People coming into my life
stealing from my body

felt like life was worthless
and things would only happen again

after people entering my life
I needed to recover
with metal slicing my skin
bleeding until daddy couldn't
see my arm

slowly recovering after slicing
my arm for so long and taking
pills until i got into a hospital bed

it took alot of time to get where
AM now and who AM now

Ive grown up
and looked back on my life

I had no control as a little girl
but as a women I'm always in
control of who and what
enters my life

Its all behind me now
and now all thats in front of me
is what the future holds for me