Hello my Love,
We meet again, its funny how we ended up here when we started off as just friends.
Its hard for me to look into your eyes and tell you what it is I have to say, so I thought id write you a letter, It'll make it easier this way...
I want to tell you that I loved the times we shared but hate this emptiness left behind, because now it seems that I can't find a time when you're not on my mind. Waking up in the absence of your presence with this loneliness so intense and it just makes no sense why we can't be together.
I'm second in your life yet you claim you loved me first, the more confused you say you are the more it adds to the hurt. Four years is a long time and yet our feelings remained the same but your hesitancy creates uncertainty to our fantasy and the reality that you have to choose between her or me.
When I try to get myself to hate you, I think of that night when you whispered you loved me, and my heart begins to warm inside as I remember your scent and your hands intertwined in mine, the feel of your fingertips across my skin, and ive convinced myself that I love you too much to give in.
Why is it that I am the one who has to wait.Yyou gave me your words and in return I gave you my heart on a silver platter, especially made for you. I must have also given you the permission to break it cuz thats exactly what you did but I guess it doesnt matter, cuz almost Lovers always do.
Im not giving up; Im just letting go. Giving you a chance to realize that youll be losing the best thing that ever came into your life, but in that time I hope its not too late for you and I. Its just a shame you werent able to fight for us, complaining that the complications was just too much.
I guess theres nothing more that we can say to each other cuz if there was ever a chance for you and I, we'll just have to wait for another.
You'll forever be in my thoughts...
Signed,
Your Almost Lover.
** A side note, i used a stanza from another poem of mine only cuz i thought it fit perfectly with how i was feeling at the time, hope u enjoy it.*
