Ache

I'm looking out my window

Snowflake gently fall

Winter's beauty

Shines with blinding brilliance

Time goes on without the person you love,

But this isn't so for the person who lost them

That person lives frozen

After the ice melts away

When the sun comes to play

I sit

Alone

Staring out the familiar window

Watching my invisible snowflakes falling

Waiting for my life to end

The way you left so suddenly

My dreams are haunted with your cries

Echoing through my brain

The cold, the terror, the pain,

Filling the empty spaces within the shell of myself

Masked in a smile

I imagine sunshine

Try to remember what it felt like

But I feel no more

Numb

Lifeless

Hollow

A ghost

I became my own phantom

And through it all,

I am not truly dead,

So I can never really be with you