I hate days like this

I hate days like this
My eyes swollen and red.
I hate days like this
Relying on only myself.

Searching for memories coming up with none to find.
Wishing for one easy day
But luck could not safice.

I hate days like this
Silence seeming nicer than thought.
I hate days like this
Needing less than a full mind

Don't cry they all incourage.
It's much harder than it looks.
Trying to find one ounce of inner streath just to be able to talk..