Today

Today

Today I lost a friend..
I gained better sense
I forgot who made me this way
Living in denial cause I let him get the best of me

Today I broke in pieces
Not because of her but for the fact I had tried so hard to
Keep a dead heart beating

Friendship found new meaning with the ugly truth of losses..
Today I found what it means to have the best friends who
Would go out there way to make me feel like I have a place in the world
Not for sex and lies , not for fake guidance, and definitely not for a title But for me to be the way I am

Today I hated my life for new and apparent reasons..
Plain naked to the eyes of curious people who don't understand what it means to stay away from the bad and stick to the hole you dug yourself to be that ugly character no one cared for but the most important people you turned your back on left you finally in the hole you deserve to be in

But today I am calm and know that life gives the weirdest obstacles so that i am ready to face the life i am meant to live whether it includes the good the bad and the hurtful..